Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Feelings of Loss

My day today was one of sorting out the things I want to do during the week such as “Work” as in paid work, organising some volunteer work and working on building my jewellery business. Now that I know what I want to do, it’s easy to decide the next step on my journey. It’s pretty exciting taking these first steps into the almost unknown.


On a totally different not, it amazes me how grief can just jump up and surprise you when you least expect it. It’s now coming up to 3 months since my Dad passed away and it has been just over 2 ½ years since my Mum passed away and I have been pretty good the last month. Tonight I had to drive near the hospital where Mum died which I have done on many occasions. But tonight was different, as I spotted the sign “Austin Hospital” I had the most powerful blanket of sadness fall over me that I have ever felt. It is really hard to explain exactly how I felt other than really really sad and empty. I’m not sure why it happened but I am OK now. I am guessing these feelings will engulf me every now as we can never loose the connection with our parents, especially our Mother as she gave birth to us.

“Davine Time” update: Having this cold wintery night to
myself curled up in my comfy chair watching telly.

3 comments:

  1. Warmest (((hugs)))) of empathy. I too have flashes of sadness after several years, so I understand. It's hard not to be in control of the moment, I have learned just to let it happen. Somehow it softens the effect.
    What an exciting time indeed. Lots of newness to settle into. Yay.

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  2. Like Linda and you, these are familiar feelings for me. Wishing you well with your grieving of such dear loved ones.
    -Kim

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  3. Where has these pass months gone! You have done remarkably well Davine. Sadness can strike at the strangest of times.
    But, at least you seem well focused! Good luck with your plans!
    Take care

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