Today the last of our visitors has gone. Shanes Dad Jack stayed with us for the week after my Dads funeral. He knew my Dad well and was very torn up that Dad had gone. Now Shane and I are sitting here with the realization that this is first time in our 15 or so years together that we are now the only two living in this house. OMG we may actually have to have a conversation!! Only kidding, but it is a bit weird not having any other noise in the house – except for Zoe’s barking that is. With my Dad gone I now have a lot of time for me and also a lot of time to think. It is a bit scary really, to actually only be responsible for myself. Sometimes it was easy to say no to something or to put of doing something because I had other responsibilities. Decisions decisions???? What road will my life take now – do I stay working with the company I am with or do I look for something else or do I concentrate on my jewelry business? Do I stay living in this house or do I move somewhere smaller? I know I should take my time as all my emotions are still raw, but me being me I want answers NOW. I have always been a list person but over the last month I have drawn up some serious long lists, mainly because my brain couldn’t cope with too much, but now it is time to start working through those lists. Yesterday I started and booked into a couple of classes I have wanted to do for a while. Also this weekend is a long weekend here in Victoria and Shane and I are heading to Torquay (camping at the beach) with a few other couples. I have arranged with a girlfriend to house and Zoe sit, so we don't have to worry about the dog starving to death. I am really looking forward to getting away, but I still occasionally get a pang of guilt – silly I know but can’t help it. I am going to take my laptop and try to update my blog while I am down there. It’s supposed to rain, but I don’t care this is the first weekend I have had away since October and I will just sit in the tent if I have to.
“Davine Time” update – As I mentioned above I have booked into a couple of classes I have wanted to do for a while. “Introduction to Mosaics”, “Setting Up Your Small Business” and “Making Jewelry with Silver Art Clay”.
Great sounding classes, good for you. It is kinda hard to only be responsible for yourself but you're a goodie, you'll do fine.
ReplyDeleteThat is going to be interesting to take a few classes and from the classes they are right up your alley.
ReplyDeleteCamping, I hope it doesn't rain on you but it sounds as though you're prepared if it does.
I agree with you not to make any life altering decisions right now while your emotions are raw. My suggestion is when the time is right for you, ask your heart what you should do, not your head. :-)
Have a fantastic weekend Davine, I hope you enjoy the great outdoors!
Sorry to hear you've had such a tough & emotional time recently. Expressing loss through creativity can be very healing & many people choose to make memorial pieces. I truly hope the classes give you some healing "you" time.
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Nicola x
Love the sound of all the classes you've signed up to Davine.
ReplyDeleteThink it will be good for you after all you've been through.
Hope you enjoy your weekend away, regardless of the weather.
Take great care Davine, My thoughts with you!
Davine, you sound wonderful ... and a little anxious. :) I was reminded of when Kels started school and I had to learn how to live with just ME to look after. It took about 6 months to readjust to being able to have responsibility for only one person again. I think that adjusting to life without our dads is the same ... how did they define who we are? How will we define who we are now? We really are such wise women for taking some time to grieve ... but impatient, too. LOL. Have a Magickal Weekend!
ReplyDeleteOh Davine, I have been away and just learned of your sweet father's passing. Bless you for the love and care you shared with him.
ReplyDeleteI understand the need to work on your lists but it's great to also hear you are taking some really interesting classes too. I hope you enjoy them.
Have a wonderful weekend away.
Big hugs.
jj
Hello Davine, something weird keeps happening each time I click onto your blog - I keep getting directed to another page.
ReplyDeletePerhaps a trip somewhere might be good for you and help you make positive decisions. It's good that you're getting away this weekend, you need time away. Apologies for not visiting sooner, but I'm going overseas in four days and have been busy organising and stuff.
Did you get the storms bad yesterday? Melbourne was flooded - a tree was struck by lightning - burnt black all the way and split from the base. We need the rain though.
Have a safe drive on your way back, and keep smiling.
Cheers.
Melbourne Daily Photo
Hope you have a lovely time away, your in my thoughts..
ReplyDeleteHow exciting to be doing some classes sounds like a big learning curve ahead in the fun kind of way. :)
Hugs
A'isha
Just checking to see why your blog has not been updated, and realise you went away for the weekend. Excellent!
ReplyDeleteHowever, the weather around Melbourne over the weekend was not so crash hot. Hope the hail did not affect you.