Thursday, March 4, 2010

Decisions Decisions

Today the last of our visitors has gone. Shanes Dad Jack stayed with us for the week after my Dads funeral. He knew my Dad well and was very torn up that Dad had gone. Now Shane and I are sitting here with the realization that this is first time in our 15 or so years together that we are now the only two living in this house. OMG we may actually have to have a conversation!! Only kidding, but it is a bit weird not having any other noise in the house – except for Zoe’s barking that is. With my Dad gone I now have a lot of time for me and also a lot of time to think. It is a bit scary really, to actually only be responsible for myself. Sometimes it was easy to say no to something or to put of doing something because I had other responsibilities. Decisions decisions???? What road will my life take now – do I stay working with the company I am with or do I look for something else or do I concentrate on my jewelry business? Do I stay living in this house or do I move somewhere smaller? I know I should take my time as all my emotions are still raw, but me being me I want answers NOW. I have always been a list person but over the last month I have drawn up some serious long lists, mainly because my brain couldn’t cope with too much, but now it is time to start working through those lists. Yesterday I started and booked into a couple of classes I have wanted to do for a while. Also this weekend is a long weekend here in Victoria and Shane and I are heading to Torquay (camping at the beach) with a few other couples. I have arranged with a girlfriend to house and Zoe sit, so we don't have to worry about the dog starving to death. I am really looking forward to getting away, but I still occasionally get a pang of guilt – silly I know but can’t help it. I am going to take my laptop and try to update my blog while I am down there. It’s supposed to rain, but I don’t care this is the first weekend I have had away since October and I will just sit in the tent if I have to.

“Davine Time” update – As I mentioned above I have booked into a couple of classes I have wanted to do for a while. “Introduction to Mosaics”, “Setting Up Your Small Business” and “Making Jewelry with Silver Art Clay”.